Remember this moment: We sat on the cool tile after lunch. It was your first time in underwear and there was no way I was going to let you have an accident on the brand new carpet. So we colored with crayons, did puzzles - anything to keep you occupied and on an easy to clean up surface. I'm not sure you're ready for this leap towards being a big boy. Do you understand the process? Do you understand the reward? I wish I knew for sure. Yesterday didn't go well. I expected that and I should have known it would be hard. There were many accidents that afternoon, many of which were just minutes after you sat on the potty. It makes me want to give up - after only one day. But we've reached to the point where I'm not sure if fighting with you over changing your diaper is harder than this.
Something I never realized about parenting, until I was one, was that it's all baby steps. There's no giant leaps. Like how learning to walk didn't happen overnight. One step here, five there, and a few days later you wobbly walked everywhere. I know this skill will be the same, but it's still really hard for both you and me. After your final accident of the evening, I retreated to my computer to search for toilet training tips once again. And this one stood out:
You can lead a child to the potty, but you can't make him pee.
I've done what I can to prepare you, Ephram, but I need frequent reminders that you'll figure it out on your own time.